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I’m on a roll! I’ve got some new stories planned and one is inspired by the dude I drew on the left there. That’s the main character for my next full-length novel, Finding Human and his name is Lucian. I’ve also added him to my art page. The next one, Night Swimming is a short story I plan on doing for a fun free read. And the last one, The Bonds of Family, will be my third and last book in my In Life and Blood trilogy. I just hope I can hold myself to these dates…

Title: Finding Human

Genre: Yaoi Infused M/M Romance – Fantasy

Length: 90,000 Words

Release Date: Late Fall, 2014

Blurb: Mankind has stretched beyond Earth to form colonies on other planets, but has forgotten from where it came. Genetically modified humans, or Alts, were cultivated to ensure survival. Alts are feared and persecuted by humans.

Lucian is an Alt and he is in love. With a human. And this is forbidden.

Ezra is the human son of the Regulator of Strata. He is charismatic, loyal to his father’s cause and wholly unattainable. Lucian is obsessed with Ezra. The obstacles are great, but with courage and hearts that won’t be restrained, there is hope. Not just for Lucian and Ezra, but for both their peoples to find harmony.

Title: Night Swimming

Genre: Yaoi Infused M/M Romance – Contemporary

Length: 6,000 Words

Release Date: Estimated May 1, 2014 – FREE READ

Blurb: Alex and Jayden work as waiters in their Midwest town while on summer break from college. Alex’s infatuation with Jayden started the instant Jayden strolled through the restaurant doors. One sizzling summer night, the restaurant’s air conditioning breaks down and they are left to close-up alone. When Jayden suggests they drive to a nearby lake for a refreshing dip, Alex jumps at the chance. The night swimming adventure turns Alex’s life upside down.

Title: In Life and Blood Book 3: The Bonds of Family

Genre: Yaoi Infused M/M Romance – Vampire

Length: 40,000 Words

Release Date: Late Summer, 2014

Blurb: Julian finds the family he was kidnapped from is opening a hardware store not far from where he and Sebastian live. The Templars and Sabbatarians forbid it, as Julian’s brother is his twin. Exposing himself as a vampire to his family means certain death to them. His compulsion to see them wins and in the process he must deceive his One, his Sebastian. Will he have to kill his family in order to keep the vampires he loves safe?

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So this blog post was inspired by this funny Yaoi motivational poster I found on DeviantArt: Yaoi Motivational Poster by SpirosDyingWish00

The poster made me think about all the standard, somewhat cliche first encounters we see in Yaoi - yes, the tripping into someone, the getting drunk, the angry slap followed by kiss, the OMG, you kissed me now I'm going to rape you. Most of which involve the two heros in a compromising close proximity to each other and the "aha!" moment. Oh, how we love these scenes, wait in high anticipation of them and squee with joy when they finally happen, LOL.

I suppose these things happen in a good het romance as well. So we're following along on the same themes again as in het romances. I also suppose this begs the question -we're all really pretty much the same when it comes to love then, no matter the gender, right?  And it's always the discovery that the one dude loves the other dude and low and behold, the other one loves him back. If he didn't, where would our love story be?

The build up to the love discovery is what's most important for our first encounter. If we've seen a fair amount of each character sighing over the other one, arguing, denying any attraction, then wow, that first kiss is a doozy:) That's called building the tension. It's always hard as a writer to know when to let loose of the tension and have that first encounter. You don't want to do it too soon before there's a proper build up or that first kiss will hardly be noticed. On the other hand, I've read books where I'm more than half way through the book and the characters still haven't had their first kiss. That makes me wonder if the story arc is only going to be about their first kiss and I get frustrated. And what I really hate? A story line that has the first encounter half way into the book and then, wham, some force takes them apart for a good portion of the book. When I read a romance, I want to read about a romance, dang it. I know each person has their own opinion on this depending on what gets them going. What do you like? What frustrates you in a Yaoi or M/M Romance story line?
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Wow, this is a tough topic these days. I just found out about AJ Llewellyn being a woman. Yes, a woman, not the gay man she pretended to be.

We both started out at eXtasy Books writing M/M Romance, though I prefer to write more of the Yaoi variety:) I've had plenty of banter back and forth with AJ about writing, the M/M genre and the like and I must say I feel a bit... shocked. I know that women have taken male pen names in times past in order to get published and all that. And I know that some female M/M Romance authors have male pen names currently and keep hush about their true identity. I suppose it is no one's business but their own. Or is it?

Here's the deal. If I read a M/M Romance book by a particular author with a male pen name, I assume certain things. The first being, that they have first-hand knowledge of what it's like to be a gay man and maybe I'll learn a few things. Of course, that's the author in me. And if and when I encounter this author in a chat or on some social media site, I speak to them as if they're the gender of their pen name. I take into account their opinions on writing and other topics based on what I think their gender is, right or wrong. I can't help it. We've all been programmed to think a certain way based on our upbringing as a particular gender and have preconceived notions about the opposite gender. I hope that makes sense:)

As far as author gender and writing M/M Romance or even Yaoi for that matter, my question is this: Should authors be straight up about their genders? I mean, we're writing about gay men for a predominantly straight female audience. M/M Romance is not the same (at least in my eyes) as gay romance - presumably written by gay men with a target audience of gay men. So it seems to me that author gender might matter. Women in general put more emotion into their romances, especially if we're targeting a female audience. Again, my freakin' opinion;) But women are emotional creatures. Emotion is what we crave, right?

I'm also wondering if the female authors writing under a male pen name are doing the rest of us authors a disservice. It's hard to go about telling people who aren't familiar with this genre that you're a straight woman writing gay romance. I've blogged about my follies with that a few times. You need a thick skin and a hardy sense of humor. Maybe if more of these women writing gay romance for other women were more up front about it, it would normalize the situation a bit more and make it easier for all of us. Stand proud that you're a straight woman writing about gay men, damn it:)

So now that I've said my piece - chime in here. What do you all think?
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I've always been a bit bothered by another M/M Romance author's bit of advice that given to me during a chat. The advice was basically this: Don't tell anyone you wrote fanfiction.

Now, as an M/M Romance author who got started in this business by writing Fullmetal Alchemist  fanfiction and has used this fact as much as possible to let my fanfiction readers know that - hey, I have some original published stories, too, and  they're a lot better than the fanfiction stories - I can't let myself really believe this is good advice. It seems to me if someone likes your fanfiction stories, then they'd probably like your original published stories, which are quite often a hell of a lot more polished and professionally edited. For me, I look at the fanfiction as fun free reads. And I loved writing them. I got to have fun with someone else's characters and quite frankly, the whole episode taught me a ton about how to write and what readers wanted to read.

And to tell you the truth? I'm proud of my fanfiction stories. Sure, there was a lot of head hopping, typos and the like. But people expect that sort of thing in fanfiction. Sometimes, I almost feel as if there's a lot more freedom in fanfiction. I can test a few things out and see if I'm wacked for writing something like that or maybe it's the best idea ever. (I'm liking that term, best XXX ever lately, LOL).

We as published writers need to promote about as much as we need to write good stories and to think we shouldn't use that avenue of ourselves to promote our work just seems... wrong. I know I've read some pretty damn good fiction on fanfiction.net and adultfanfiction.net. So to think that all that literature out there on those sites is bad writing, well, I don't subscribe to that view. And if you're a published author and want to write a bit of it for fun, why not? And why not promote it as yours?

What do you think? How do you other authors feel about this issue? And yep, if you look to the right there in my links, you'll find my fanfiction.net site and can read all my fanfiction stories if you're so inclined:)
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So I've noticed lately on YouTube, much to my delight, some Japanese films that appear to be what I'd refer to as "Live Action Yaoi". Now maybe I'm coming into this phenomenon really late and all you other fangirl and fanboy types have already drooled all over these things, but I'm hoping to see them on Netflix or even Crunchyroll sometime soon;) (If they're already there, tell me!)

I've started watching one called, Soshite, Harukaze ni Sasayaite, or maybe Takumi-Kun Series, I can't tell what the name is by the video title;) And I'm very intrigued. Sure, it's a bit mushy as gay movies go, but it's also very sweet. And if we like yaoi, that's what we're looking for, right? This story in particular is based off this shy dude who was molested, I think, by his older brother and is the love interest for your typical very popular dude. They're in college and share a room - how convenient:) Gee, I think I've seen that somewhere before (like in my own book The Obsession, LOL). And so the popular guy, Gii, makes his feelings known and protects Takumi in true yaoi, seme fashion.

It looks like the guys don't do too much in terms of sex except for a stolen kiss here or there and lots of gushy "I love you's". Of course, I can always hope. And as I peruse YouTube, I think I'm seeing a few of these things with a bit more racy content. There's one called, Pure, that seems to go a bit, ahem, deeper.

Let's get some discussion going about this - do you like these or yaoi anime better? Where are these coming from - please enlighten me a bit more:) And what's up with this? Can we petition Netflix and Crunchyroll to show them if they don't already? If I seem a bit daft with respect to these things, give me a break - I just found them!
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I'm watching this yaoi anime on Crunchyroll (finally, Yaoi on Crunchyroll!), Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi - World's Greatest First Love, and I realized that in so many Yaoi anime and manga, the guys don't seem to actually want to have sex, at least the ukes don't. Why is that? Don't all men want to have sex all the time? If so, shouldn't it hold true that in our gay male stories, there's lots of man sex and they're loving it?

So, I was putting dishes away, because God knows I have nothing better to do on a Sunday morning;) and I'm thinking to myself about why we as straight women like this sort of thing. I mean, we must, right? Or why would the Yaoi powers that be put this stuff out? And why would we watch it so religiously?

In the typical Yaoi manga or anime, you have these two dudes that are attracted to each other, maybe even confess their love for each other, but invariably one chases after the other for sex (usually the seme), while the other runs from it (usually the uke). Then when the seme actually gets the uke, the uke does the, "Oh, stop... please stop", thing while at the same time obviously getting off on what the seme's doing.

My question is - could this be a hold over from the traditional romance story days when the heroine in our romance books loved, but hated, but didn't want to tarnish her reputation by having sex, but got really hot and bothered by the hero? As women, we're supposed to make guys chase us, guys we like, but we can't show them we like them or we won't get chased. Whew, what a wild game, huh? And what a mess... And this does resemble the typical Yaoi story arc, does it not? Hmmm...

Maybe in these stories, since they're written largely for a straight female audience, this dynamic exists in order to give some sort of semblance of a traditional male/female role that women recognize immediately. And we eat it up, don't we? It's that whole forbidden thing. The "I want you, but I shouldn't, can't" thing. The whole reason why we love our Yaoi and M/M Romance - forbidden love.

And so the poor uke has to go on wanting sex with his seme, but pretending like he doesn't. I wonder, what would happen if we made stories that were more true to gay male life? Would we still devour them so hungrily? What do you like?
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Hot guys come in all flavors and sizes. So as a writer of M/M romance books, I'm always striving to make the perfect hero. Of course, this means the perfect hero as I see the perfect hero, because, after all, I only have my own perception to rely on. And what is the perfect hero in my view? Usually a hero that's not so perfect, if that makes any sense:)

To me, the perfect hero is a dichotomy - a man that's strong and protective and yet flawed, sensitive and vulnerable. Yep, I said all those things in one sentence. It seems I'm always drawn to heroes I see in anime - Vincent Law of Ergo Proxy (do I talk enough about this dude, or what?), Kira Yamato in Gundam Seed, Cashhern in Casshern Sins. These guys are the best when it comes to fighting, killing, maiming, what have you. Hell, they aren't even human, LOL. But they all possess a sort of humility about themselves and their abilities, a deep remorse from their wrong-doings or perceived wrong-doings and the ability to love deeply and give of themselves completely. Note I'm talking about Kira Yamato here and not Athrun Zala - get my drift?

And so as a writer of M/M romance, I draw upon what I see appealing in these characters in order to morph certain traits into my own, perfect-yet-flawed heroes. I strive to make a character that I find approachable, but not the type of guy you'd think was approachable if you met him in person. You know, the lonely guy in the corner of the bar who might look like he's all that, but deep down he's just the average Joe in his own mind.

I think women (and gay men) in general do dream of guys like this and so like to read about them in their M/M romances. At least I hope so since that's what I try to write;) On the other hand, it's a hard job. I'm always asking myself - is this guy too tough? Is he being too sensitive for this scene? Can I get the humanity out of this character and onto the page while he's being a real asshole? Or the classic - did I just turn this dude into a lady? LOL

Yes, all of these things cross my mind and in the end, I find I just have to be true to myself and the story I'm writing. You can't write a story everyone will like or a perfect hero everyone finds perfect, because he's a moving target in the perception of everyone's mind. Did that make sense? I hope so. Tell me, what is your perfect hero and why? And fellow authors, how the heck do you get that onto the written page?
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Okay, so I live in the desert and it's like, 115 degrees today. I get it. It's hot. But so what? We have air conditioning. Yoshiki's hair will not go limp.

So everytime I see that one of my favorite JRock groups are on a "World Tour" it seems they never make it to the center of the USA. Sure, they make stops in New York and Los Angeles (lucky bastards), but never come to Phoenix, Arizona or God forbid, Nebraska. We interior folks like our JRock, too. Right? I mean, when X Japan played Chicago at the Lollapalooza last year all the headlines were that X Japan stunned and awed the fans. Think of how many new fans they'd make if they simply went a little further inside America, like to Phoenix, where I live:)

I have a theory. Maybe they're afraid. Yes, Afraid. Maybe they know about our conservative, speak English or die, wear your USA t-shirt and jeans with your cowboy hat types who spit chew and still call the Japanese all those terrible slang names that I can't bring myself to write. Maybe Mana thinks if he comes over here and plays somewhere in the interior US in his Lolita outfit someone will beat the crap out of him. You know? He may be right. But... don't they have body guards, LOL?

I'll tell you a funny story. So my boyfriend is in this rock band and they play at all these clubs in the Phoenix metro area. Of course, they play your typical Lynerd Skynerd and Rolling Stones, but they also, thank God (not a big fan of hearing those songs over and over and over...) play some newer music like Matchbox 20. Anyway, the guitar player for the band is a big metal head. You know the type, Metallica all the way. Death metal. Lots of thumping guitars. He asked over Facebook if anyone had any new rock bands they could send his way because he was looking for new music to add to his iPod. So I did. You know what I sent him *snicker, snicker*.  I sent him Dir en Gray and X Japan and D'espairs Ray. You know what he said? Great music, but they don't speak English. He's the speak English or die type, I guess. Think of all the world-wide music you miss out on when you say, "but they don't speak English." Wow.

So today I found out about X Japan's new single, Jade, which is in freaking English. I sent this guy the YouTube link via Facebook and he liked it. He also said, "those chicks can rock." WTF??? They may be pretty and dress in the kind of clothes American rock stars should be wearing (see my other blog on that), but they do not look like chicks (okay, Mana in his Lolita outfit does, I guess - but he was NOT in the video!).

So what do you think? Why don't they come farther into the interior? And should they? I know I wish they did...

And here's the video - Jade by X Japan. It's awesome!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=W37_xI…
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After enduring a crashed hard drive which totally wiped out all of my data, including the first version of this book, I have finally rewritten the second book in the In Life and Blood series. I just received a release date of May 1, 2011 from my publisher. I'm now frantically working on the cover;) Anyhow, this book is about Sebastian and is told from his point of view. I had lots of fun researching Dacian (Ancient Romanian) life, finding slang words in Romanian and translating little bits of English into Romanian. For instance, did you know that a really big insult in Romanian is to basically tell someone to go back up in their mother's womb where they came from? And they apparently talk about the penis a lot when swearing, LOL. Like, pula mea, which they use like an English speaking person would use as "fuck", and literally means, "my cock".

Anyhow, here's the blurb:

With his one true love, Julian, at his side and a new son to look after, Sebastian's grief-stricken past comes out of hiding to find him. As Julian and Nikolai struggle to understand what vampire life should be and strive to live a normal life, Sebastian fights with his demons to allow the freedoms they deserve. But with the queen's band of chevaliers not quite under control and shadows lurking in the night, Sebastian's fears escalate. Can Sebastian find the courage to let go and at the same time give Julian and Nikolai the protection they desperately need?

On with the sneak peak (unedited) :

"Sebastian!"

His shoulder jerked backward. Julian came into focus through wet eyes.

"Oh my God, what's happened?" Julian, in a sweatshirt and jeans, threw his arms around Sebastian and held him tight. "Talk to me."

Sniffling, he wrapped his arms around his lover. "My angel, you are here and not dead."

"What? Of course not." Julian kissed the side of Sebastian's head.

He left the door open. Anger fluttered up his spine. He shoved Julian away. Glaring at his lover, he said, "What the hell were you thinking leaving the door open like that?" He swiped at the wetness on his face.

Julian's eyes widened in surprise. "What?"

Nikolai raced from the edge of the wall toward his bedroom.

"You left the house wide open. Anyone could have gotten in here. Anyone." He placed his hands on his hips.

"B-but we were just, just outside. I was showing Nikolai an owl and—"

"Never, ever leave the house like that. And don't ever go outside without my permission." He pointed at Julian.

Anger spread over Julian's face. He gritted his teeth. "Don't you tell me what to do. If I want to go outside I will. My days of being imprisoned are over."

Stunned, he took a step back and placed his fingertips on his forehead. "Uh, I'm, I'm sorry, Julian. I didn't mean it that way." His anger morphed into relief. He looked around the room a moment. "I was afraid something happened to you both."

Julian's stance relaxed. "No, it didn't. We were just looking at a damn owl in the tree out back." He looked down at his feet and back up at Sebastian. "Nikolai was all excited about it." He studied Sebastian. "Sebastian, you were crying when I walked in. I don't ever think I've seen you cry before. What's going on?"

He turned around and looked at the black and stainless gas stove, hiding a new wave of embarrassment and guilt as best he could. "It's just that the situation, the door being open like that, reminded me of how I found my mother's corpse all those years ago." Solid hands gripped his shoulders and turned him around. He gazed down into his lover's beautiful, blue-grey eyes.

Wisps of long, chestnut-colored hair surrounded Julian's face and spilled out over the dark sweatshirt covering his shoulders. "I'm so sorry. Tell me about it."

He shut his eyes a second and shook his head. "It's all right now. You are safe."

A hurt look spread over Julian's face. "But we're One now, you and I. I want to know what happened to you. I want to know all about you."

He let out a long exhale. I must tell Julian something for my behavior. "It was during the Hun wars. I found the door to our home open. It was obvious that there had been a struggle. I found her on the floor, a terrible wound in her head. I was a newly made vampire and I tried to save her with my blood, but I couldn't." Remorse wound around his heart again. And so I drank her blood instead. He took in a ragged breath of air.

"I feel it, Sebastian. I feel how much this saddens you still." Wrapping his arms around Sebastian, Julian pulled him in close. "I love you and I promise nothing like that will ever happen to me. I'll be careful. I can protect myself. Especially when it comes to Caesar."

"No, you can't." He breathed in Julian's musky scent, all clover and spice, relishing in his embrace. "He is far more dangerous than we thought."

"Why do you say that?" Julian's lips found Sebastian's, placing a lingering kiss over them.

A prick of alarm raced inside him. Stupid, do not say such things. "No reason in particular. I just want you to keep your guard up until this whole incident with your old coven is resolved."

Julian released Sebastian and stepped back. "You know I will. And now I have my sword back in case the Templars need me." He smiled at Sebastian.

He'd make sure that would never happen. "So you found it at the door?"

"I sure did." Julian twisted and came back around to face Sebastian. "I think we scared the crap out of Nikolai."

Relief rained down on Sebastian and a wide grin spread over his face. "I think you're right. It was our first fight, my angel."

"And I'm sure it won't be the last." Julian let out a short chuckle. "Let's go and find him."
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As most of you may have heard, I put out a call last week for authors and readers of M/M Romance and Yaoi to be guest bloggers on my homepage blog here: christiegordon.com/blog/. There was a really great response and I'm pleased to say that for the next few months, there should be some fun discussion from avid readers and authors alike about the subject. I've asked the bloggers to talk about things like:
  • Why they write M/M Romance or Yaoi
  • What funny or interesting things they have come across in the M/M Romance and Yaoi genres
  • Purple Prose (you know, those wacky ways us authors like to describe sex)
  • Why do they think women like M/M Romance and Yaoi
  • Any funny quirks of the genre and so on.

Some of the authors I've already booked are (in order of appearance):
  • ZA Maxfield
  • Amber Kell
  • Belinda McBride
  • Louisa Brown
  • Julie Hayes
  • Laura Tolemei

Plus I've got a few readers to blog as well. If anyone reading this wants to join in and guest blog, please contact me at: Contact

All in all, it should be a fun couple of months here, so please check by often to see what's up. Of course, I'll be announcing the guest bloggers at all my usual places, Twitter, Facebook and MySpace (Links and follow info to the right there).

And that picture at the top, holy cow - I swear that is exactly what I picture Logan to look like in my next full-length novel, "Secrets".
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If we're going to have a quick discussion on Lolita and how it pertains to JRock, I suppose we have to talk about what it is first. Historically, the term Lolita can be referenced back to a book. Wikipedia says,  "Lolita is a novel by Vladimir Nabokov, first written in English and published in 1955 in Paris and 1958 in New York, and later translated by the author into Russian. The book is internationally famous for its innovative style and infamous for its controversial subject: the protagonist and unreliable narrator, middle-aged Humbert Humbert, who becomes obsessed and sexually involved with a 12-year-old girl named Dolores Haze."

Okay, so the first "Lolita" was a fictitious, 12-year-old, sexually active girl who had a thing for much older men. Got it.

Anyone who knows anything about JRock and anime culture knows that "Lolita" is a term for a certain type of fashion - frilly, lacey dresses that are similar to something you'd see in "Gone with the Wind", but have a decided sexually provocative and sometimes Gothic flare to them and we've seen some of our favorite JRockers sporting these dresses on stage. It sprung up amongst the Visual Kei (Visual Style, translated) thing back in the late 1980s, when all rock stars at least wore make-up. Except, the Japanese took this to an extreme.

I've personally seen many a woman wearing a Lolita outfit at an anime/yaoi con and I must say I've investigated getting one for myself to wear on Halloween, my favorite holiday. A forty-something mother of two wearing a Gothic Lolita outfit for anything but Halloween seems a bit strange, dont' you think? Not that I'm above that, LOL. There are also many an anime in which boys are forced to wear princess outfits that look suspiciously similar to Lolita outfits. Hmmm...

So how did this 12-year-old-girl named Dolores inspire a fashion culture in Japan that culimnated in cross-dressing Japanese rock musicians? I have no idea. But I do know one thing, it's both intriguing and just plain silly, at least in my opinion. I have to say, I find these Japanese cross-dressing rock stars courageous. There is no way any respectable American rock musician would have the balls to prance around onstage with his guitar in a Lolita dress. Okay, maybe Marilyn Manson... but do you really want to see that? I think the closest we did get to seeing something like that was Boy George in the 80s, LOL.

My main question here becomes: what's up with Lolita fashion and male JRockers? Are the Japanese really insane? Are they just doing these things to make us say, "What the fuck?" I'm laughing to myself on that one. I'd love to hear your comments and views on the subject. Do you like it, hate it, want to be it?

For the full blog with pictures, go here: christiegordon.com/2011/01/lol…
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I thought it would be fun to post some "character interviews" from my books and maybe give some further insight to their background and such. First off - Shannon Sullivan, the main character from "A Summer Without Rain". If you haven't read the book, here's a quick blurb and you can access more information here. If you've read it, feel free to skip the blurb;)

Blurb:
In 1920's Ireland, Shannon understands all too well that the love and hunger he feels for his best friend, Ciaran, is forbidden.  He's already shunned by his town and emotionally damaged from enduring painful confessions after a male teacher's molestation at age fourteen.  But when he finds Ciaran in a barn, grieving over the sudden death of his mother, a hasty and desperate embrace shatters an unspoken boundary between them.  Then, Shannon and Ciaran are sent on a journey to Dublin to bring a family heirloom to Ciaran's aunt.  Along the way, a drunken evening leads to an illicit act in a hotel room, confusing Ciaran and forcing them both down a treacherous path of deceit and desire.  Can love overcome the obstacles of Irish society, the Catholic Church, and political unrest?

So, on with the interview (and yes, we're back in 1920's Ireland. Fiction is magic, you know):

Me: I'm sitting here at a small square table in a dark Irish pub called, McFlynne's Whiskey River, with Shannon Sullivan from "A Summer without Rain".

Me: *turns to Shannon* Hi, Shannon, it's great to see you again after what was it, two years now?

Shannon: Almost two years. I've been quite busy, you know, in all that time.

Me: Busy doing what?

Shannon: *blushes and looks away* Getting ready for a serious thing with Ciaran.

Me: Serious? What sort of serious thing?

Shannon: *wringing hands* Well, seems we've come to a point where just living together in Aunt Iona's flat isn't enough. We want our own place, a bloody right place for us. One with thick walls and windows that shut real tight now.

Me: *laughing* So no one hears you having sex?

Shannon: *eyes wide* Christie, I can't believe you would bloody say that! I thought you were a right decent woman...

Me: I'm the one that wrote all those torrid sex scenes, remember?

Shannon: *blushes again* Right... *he looks up at me with a twinkle in his eye* And I bloody well thank you for that.

Me: Okay, so how are you and Ciaran doing?

Shannon: Ah, he's all right. I do love the bloody bastard and all, but sometimes he angers me something fierce. *sits forward in his chair* Like the other day, he thought it was a grand idea to write a letter to me ma and da, trying to explain how much their silence over these years pains me. And now they're coming out from Enfield to see me. Can you bloody believe that? I about shat myself.

Me: *smiling and taking Shannon's hand* I'm glad they're finally coming to see you. And you should thank Ciaran for loving you so much that he did that for you. It must have been one hell of a letter to get them to actually come out. It's got to be  a very tough thing for them to face.

Shannon. Yeah, Aunt Iona and Ciaran's da say they'll stand behind me no matter what when they come. But I'm bloody petrified. What if me da tries to have me arrested or sent off to the bloody nuthouse?

Me: Arrested? I don't think so...

Shannon: But he bloody well could.

Me: I don't think so.

Shannon: *looks around a moment* I s'pose Aunt Iona and Mr. O'Kelly would put  stop to it.

Me: Don't worry, Shannon. Ciaran would be the one who'd put a stop to it. You know he'd find a way and I doubt he'd allow your dad to visit knowing that something like that might happen. He loves you and I know he'd do anything for you.

Shannon: *smiles* Yeah, the bloody bastard.

Me: So how've you gotten on here in Dublin?

Shannon: Bloody great, actually. I have lots of friends now and even female friends that don't care so much about me and Ciaran. I guess they're more like Aunt Iona. See, we all belong to this sort of underground club. One that's just for people like us, you know, *chuckles* people who like mint ice cream. In fact, that's what we call it.

Me: Mint ice cream?

Shannon: *sits back and shakes head* No, the Mint Club. Aunt Iona started it before we even came down here the first time. Now it's all bleedin' political and stuff.

Me: *smiles* So did you ever learn how to drive a car?

Shannon: *frowns and rubs table surface with fingers* Sort of.

Me: Sort of ? Is that a no? *chuckles*

Shannon: No, that's a sort of. I bloody hate driving automobiles and I can't fathom why Ciaran can't just leave it beMe: I got a hint for you, *sits forward* they're not going away.

Shannon: Ah hell.

And there you have it. Hope you enjoyed it as much as I liked writing it;)
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I included videos in this post, so it's too long to post here.

Regards,

Christie
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This is a common theme in yaoi, is it not? Us fangirls and fanboys taking two characters of a series on clearly opposite sides, who clearly hate each other and then making them, well, fuck. I can think of so many it's not even funny (okay, maybe it is). There's Kira and Athrun, Ed and Roy, Ed and Envy (isn't Envy really his homunculus brother?), Lalouch and Suzaku, Zero and Kaname and of course pretty much all the men of Death Note including Light and L, Near and Mello, and every combination in-between.

I think this may be a left over from the classical romance days. Wasn't the heroine always supposed to hate the man she was secretly attracted to? And the man is always an ass to the woman initially, until he's been scorned repeatedly and then somehow miraculously decides he's in love with her, changes over night and off into the sunset they ride on their gleaming white horse. Oh my, I seem to have gotten off on a tangent. Tsk tsk to me for having so much hetero talk on a yaoi and M/M romance blog! Ack! So my point is that in yaoi and M/M romance fandom, it seems like we're following this age old theme. We take two hot guys on the opposite sides of a war, who battle against each other (and if they happened to be childhood friends and very angst-ridden it's even better;) ) and somehow in our fanfiction world, they come together and their passion for each other is so overwhelming... they fuck. In the ass. First time. Okay, so maybe not the first time. You want your reader to wait for that, but you want to give them a little something so the characters like, bump into each other, get drunk, whatever and soon they're kissing on each other and groping like the sexually frustrated virgins we make them out to be;)

And it's hot, I have to admit. So what makes it so hot to read about Light and L getting it on? Well, there was that handcuff thing, but I think I've beat that one to death, LOL. Maybe it's because it adds an even higher level of the forbidden. I mean, for me at least, the "forbidden" is part of what makes yaoi and M/M Romance such a great love story to read. It adds angst and lots of drama for not only these guys to be OMG, gay for each other, but to not supposed to like each other at all. And in Death Note, we have two extremely smart individuals who in the series are playing this sort of cat and mouse game with each other. Can you imagine the reaction of Light's father if he found out his son was sticking it to L? Hah!!! How about the other guys on the case? And Misa would be heartbroken. Good, I hated her anyway. The shock and horror on her face if she walked in to L and Light in the middle of a hot and heavy boinking session would be a sight to behold. But back to the cat and mouse game, I wonder how many fanfiction stories have this being played out in the bedroom as well:

Pinning L's arms up above his head on their bed, Light looked down upon a naked L with a smirk. The chains connected to their handcuffs jingled. He ground his hips onto L's erection and leaned down to savor L's lips, sweet with the mint candy he'd eaten. "You know, I've heard mints are great for blow jobs."
"So...I guess I'll be giving the blow job tonight?" L's eyes sparkled with mischievous intent.
Light thought a moment. If he gives me the blow job, then that means he knows I'm Kira. But if he doesn't give me the blow job, then maybe he wants to fuck me instead. If he wants to fuck me, then maybe he'll find out that Kira can kill with more than just heart attacks. But if we just kiss, then maybe he's found out about it already.
Ryuk leaned down and peered up into Light's face. "Jesus, kid, would you just do it already? I need my apple fix."

See what I mean? LOL. So why do you think we love to make men who hate each other fuck each other?

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Okay, so the question today is, who is your favorite hot anime guy and why?

Off the top of my head I'm thinking about all the Gundam series, starting with Wing and ending with 00, just because I have yet to find a place that is streaming Gundam Unicorn online (but if I find one, I'll let y'all know.). In Wing, we have Duo, Heero, Trowa, Quatre and Wufei. I think I like Due and Heero most, of course the dude with the long hair and the silent strong type;) I believe they are my favorite yaoi pairing from this series, too. As far as the Gundam Seeds go, I love Kira and Athrun. Kira is just so... well angsty and Athrun is the sensitive type that I wish more dudes had in them. And then of Gundam 00, my favorites are Neil Dylandy (first only to his twin brother Lyle) and Allelujah Haptism. Setsuna, though very angsty, just seems too young to me and I'm sorry, Tieria is really a girl with a male voice, isn't he? LOL

I could name so many, like Kira and L from Death Note, Ichigo and Renji from Bleach(I just recorded the Bleach movies they showed on Adult Swim last night), Cain, Able and Hugue from Trinity Blood(love, love, Hugue), Hagi from Blood +, Amon from Witch Hunter Robin, Cloud and Vincent from Final Fantasy and Edward Elric and Roy Mustang from FMA (you didn't think I'd forget them, did you?)  and so on.

Let's get on to why these characters appeal to us. First and foremost for me, artwork in the anime is of utmost importance. I'm thinking Death Note, Blood Trinity, Final Fantasy and Gundam 00 here. I think everything in these series is beautifully drawn, let alone the characters. And they always have cool hair. What's up withe free flowing, long and gorgeous hair in anime guys? Why can't real guys look like that? Oh wait, JRockers pretty much do;) I've always liked dudes with long hair and I don't know why. Maybe someday I'll have to examine this more with a therapist, LOL. But even when I was a teenager, I always went for the dude with the longest hair and bonus if he had dark hair (black preferable). Of course, I dated a lot of musicians (and still do). Hair is my favorite part to draw when I do my own artwork and notice, not many dudes with short hair.

Moving on, how about how these guy's bodies are drawn? Even the supposed high schoolers have a body to die for. We're talking muscled hairless chests, six pack abs and long and lean. This is just my type as well. Not only do I like my men to have long hair, but I prefer them to have more of a lean body - none of this muscle bound, I can't put my arms all the way down, types. And no, I do not like facial hair or a whole lot of chest hair and too bad. I like what I like and it happens to be just what anime dudes look like. Maybe this is why manga and anime appeal much more to me than Marvel Comics and  American cartoons (that was a whole other blog - "What's up with American Animation?")

With all the short haired, muscled dudes you see on romance novels and such and the types of guys my friends date (uh, that type), it makes me think that my taste is a little, well, eccentric. Or maybe I'm just out of the closet and there are legions of women who don't really like the culture-driven, spoon-fed types of guys that are on television and romance novel book covers. Maybe there are hordes of us who really, secretly long for dudes who look like Lockon Stratos and Hugue. I mean, Fabio was pretty popular at one point, right? What happened to all those women? Did they all just go back in their closets?

What do you like and why?

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Okay let's weigh in on this one. It seems in fanfiction and slash, making a male character get pregnant is a common occurance (if not, then why is there a category for it and whole communities devoted to it, hmmm?). It's so prevalent, I've even seen an episode of Grey's Anatomy where a guy came into the hospital because he was "pregnant". I have to admit, it was hilarious. But did you know that there is actually a procedure for making a man pregnant with In Vitro Fertilization and  a man named Lee Mingwei did become pregnant? There's even a website for it: www.malepregnancy.com.    Unfortunately for Lee, the chances of him surviving birth with all his abdominal organs intact are pretty low (if he doesn't hemorrhage to death).
Enough with the gory details of reality and on to why in the world we want to make our male characters pregnant. Is it because we have some revenge vendetta against men and want to make them experience the pains of pregnancy? I have been pregnant and have kids, so I know all about the poking, prodding, testing and pains that go along with pregnancy. Okay, and the wonderful little moments like the first ultra sound where you get to see your baby inside you and the first time you actually feel them move. It's pretty cool, all in all. But men...pregnant? The concept lends itself to a host of hilarious situations. So do we enjoy this facet of the M/M genre because of its comedic value? Or how about this, maybe we have a need for our male heroes to have all that hetero couples have - marriage and children. So we let one of them somehow get pregnant and off they go into the world of raising kids and living a "normal" life.
Now I've read a few of these mpreg fanfictions and I must say, overall I'm not impressed. And now I'll admit that I find the concept ridiculous and somewhat retarded, but that's just me. So in my quest to find out what this is all about, I did do some more reading and I actually found a story that I must say, was believable, had a good plot, was handled very well and had some hilarious moments in it. It was an FMA story on www.fanfiction.net and Roy Mustang, as a result of an alchemy experiment gone awry, ended up pregnant. I wish I could find it again so I could share, but alas, I can't >.<  What was so great about this story, is the situation of a man being pregnant and also being an officer in the military was handled realistically. And when Roy had to tell Edward his predicament, comedy ensues;)
So maybe the bottom line here is, it's all of the above. We like to see men "tortured" in the way women have over the eons of time, we like to read about funny situations and let's face it, men dealing with pregnancy is funny and some of these stories, when handled properly, are really good fiction. It's a difficult thing to write properly, which is why I think there are so many stinkers out there story-wise and why it sometimes gets a bad rap. What do you think?

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Wow, what a question to start off with when I've been absent pretty much all summer, huh? From what I've seen out there in author-land, there seems to be some polarizing views on what Yaoi and M/M romance written by and for a female audience (yes, I know many men like it, too, and I think I've already covered this ground in "Yaoi versus M/M Romance: What's the Difference") should be and how it may or may not affect the gay community.

Let's take the first part of this, shall we? Does Yaoi exploit gay men? Our characters in Yaoi fall into seme and uke and in many instances, let's face it, the uke is a chick with a dick. Are there real gay men out there like that? I'd say certainly. While many lesbians (and yep, I do know quite a few) can sometimes bend their female gender to imitate a man quite well, I've seen it done just as well with the opposite sex. Wait, what did I just say? Some lesbians act more like guys than guys and some gay men act more like women than women do;) (Just like in the hetero world, LOL) OMG, I think I've just started a topic for another day - gender bending and men in dresses, LOL. So, if there are real gay men out there that act like cute little ukes, by having characters like this are we exploiting them? Hell no. Am I exploiting dogs when I have one in a story and it barks and wags it's tail? Okay, maybe that's a bit extreme. Even if there weren't any gay men who behave like a typical uke, does this mean we shouldn't write about them? Again, do dragons and unicorns exist? And there are stories written about them all the time.

But on a deeper level, are we female readers and writers of Yaoi and M/M romance  exploiting gay men because we're turning them into some twisted fantasy we have about gay men and them getting it on? Personally, I find this ridiculous, too. We may make them and like them to be a bit more emotional than a real guy and we may want them to fall in love more than real gay men do, but I've also heard from real gay men that these stories can be inspirational to them. And about the emotional part? Boys and girls are born pretty much the same, it's our culture that forces boys to repress their emotions. Studies show that our culture is finally changing and it's getting more and more acceptable for men to shed a tear or two. What's the big deal anyway?

What I'd really like to know is why it seems to be okay with the lesbian community and especially our culture at large for straight men to watch lesbian porn, but, OMG, you're a straight woman and you write gay romance stories??? It seems like every time I see some stupid ad for porn aimed at men, it's two hot chicks getting it on. And have you seen late night HBO and such? The soft porn ALWAYS has two hot chicks getting it on. Not that there is anything wrong with that - just to be clear. I'd just like to see more, well you all know what I want to see, wink, wink.

So no, I don't think Yaoi or M/M romance exploits anyone (maybe the fangirls, LOL). And for that last part - do we care? Of course we do, don't be stupid. Reading and writing Yaoi and M/M romance has helped me to understand the trials of being gay and lesbian throughout history and today. My first book, A Summer without Rain, was critiqued by a man whose son is gay. He told me reading my manuscript actually helped him to understand and empathize better with his son. And guess what? I'm proud of that.

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Are anime stories better than Hollywood?

Journal Entry: Tue May 11, 2010, 1:30 PM


I'll just get the "business" part over before hitting on today's topic, if you don't mind.

Yay!!! My comments finally work on my new website!(www.christiegordon.com) I freakin reuploaded everything only to find out I did some disastrous boo-boo in setting up my page links, causing my comment dilemma. I'm over it. Moving on...

Congratulations to Lakisha for being the ebook winner at my "Grand Opening"! If you all are interested, I wrote everyone's name down on a folded peice of paper and then had my younger son pick from a hat. Yep, that's how it's done.

Now on to the topic of the day:

Are anime stories better than Hollywood?
I just purchased and watched Avatar for the second time and I'm telling you, if there weren't some MAJOR anime themes in that movie, well, slap me silly if you can find me.

I think to start off this discussion, we need to look at what anime stories have made it to Hollywood (and I may not list them all, I'm a bit delirious from figuring out my comment problem, LOL)

Astro Boy
Speed Racer
Transformers
DragonBall Z
Avatar - The Last Airbender (due out this summer, I believe)

There are talks of bringing more over here for live action film every day (take a look at some of my recent tweets...). I can think of "Ghost in the Machine" and I've recently heard something about "Bleach"! Yeah, that's right.

Though I'd really like to see them try and do Full Metal Alchemist - who'd play Edward Elric? Hmmm, maybe that dude who played Jasper in Twilight? Oh, Oh, kinky thoughts...Roy could be Gackt with his new black hair;)

So why are all these big Hollywood film makers turning to anime? Is it that they've run our of murder mystery with cops, alien invasion, cutesy romantic comedy ideas? I think so. And I also think the story lines in anime are quite well developed and out of the box, so to speak. Maybe it's the Japanese culture  and the exotic background that makes for such great story fodder. Now if we could only avoid some of the Hollywood gone anime disasters, like Dragon Ball Z... If only Hollywood would find a way to keep what's so special in our anime special and not glam up the characters or reduce the intensity of the plot and let us in America see the drama, the heartache, the loyalty exhibited by our anime characters and not water them down for our namby-pamby American audience. Let's show them what real anime is about and take it out of the "comic book geek" realm into the real worlds the anime depict. I do have a lot of hope for Avatar - The Last Airbender. But so help me God if they make that movie in any way cartoonish - and you know what I mean (*cough*, Speed Racer), I'll shave my head. Okay, maybe I won't, but I'll do something rash, like write yet another blog about how Hollywood sucks. So there. Make it like Avatar, the movie, please...


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Grand Opening of My New Website - Free Ebook,)

Journal Entry: Fri May 7, 2010, 10:52 AM


***CONTEST***FREE EBOOK***CONTEST***FREE EBOOK***


Now that I have your attention*snicker*  Hi everyone and come and see my new and hopefully better blog and website. I'll be blogging there about the same things I did over at House of Manlove, namely Anime, Yoai, M/M Romance and JRock and I believe you can subscribe to my blog and get an RSS feed if you're so inclined;) Of course, I'm still working on the bells and whistles of trying to make it easy to subscribe...

If any of you are wondering, yep, I did the site all by myself! I do have an electrical engineering degree, so it wasn't too much of a stretch to figure it all out. Anyhow, the new updated version has fun things like an Anime News Network Feed, information on what's in the works for me writing wise and lots of excerpts;) I'm thinking about doing some sort of sign-up subscription thingy and then letting people sign up to see things not open to the general public - like the first three chapters of all my books, free reads, and maybe some naked Yaoi pics (I've always wanted to do this, but never had the time). So what do you think of that? Is there anything else you'd like to see on the site or in the blog? I'd love to make this a bit more interactive and maybe schedule some chats (I think I saw a chat plug-in somewhere).

As it says above, this is the "Grand Opening" and as such, I am giving away a free ebook of your choice (one of mine, of course) to one lucky person who leaves me a comment on my latest blog post(at the site, NOT HERE). I'll be drawing at random one week from today.

And by the way, what the heck happened to Yaoi Gallery? No more naked pics???

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Yaoi versus M/M Romance - What's the Difference?

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 23, 2010, 3:29 PM


So before I begin this discussion, I suppose I need to define what constitutes "M/M Romance" and "Yaoi". Of course, by setting a definition I may very well answer my original question;) But here goes:

M/M Romance: This is usually defined as women writing homoerotic romances for women. It usually comes in book form - short stories, novellas or novels. The covers of the books are made up of largely  half nude, buffed men. The covers are also done with photo-manipulation. They are usually like hetero romances in there are genre's like historical, paranormal with werewolves and vampires, contemporary, fantasy, steampunk, whatever. The main characters are everything from cops to cowboys to wealthy business men to military men and all in-between.

Yaoi: This is also usually defined as women writing homoerotic romances for women. It most widely comes in manga or comic form, although there seems to be a trend outside of Asia to produce it in regular book form. Many of them are also made into anime. The genres pretty much run the gamut of paranormal, contemporary and fantasy, except that many of the main characters are high school or college students and many are what we'd consider "underage" in the USA. A very popular theme in Yaoi is the older man/underage man.

I suppose if you look at my definitions (they are by no means all encompassing or exactly right;) ), I think there are some clear differences. In my experience, M/M romance tends to try and stick to real issues involving gay relationships way more than Yaoi does. But since it's written by and for women  (and yes, I understand many men read it, but it's still written for a female audience. Football ads target young men and I still watch them and find them amusing - sheesh) there is an element of romantic emotion between the two men that isn't quite realistic and you probably won't find written in a real, bona fide Gay Romance novel (written by and for gay men).

I tend to think Yaoi takes this romantic emotion thing a bit further. Maybe the men don't really act like real men - but dang, we're surrounded by real men all the time, can't we just have some made up men that act how we'd like them to act for once? But the trick here is not to make them so farfetched that they're completely unbelievable. It's all about what we want, right? I think I'm off on a bit of a tangent, LOL.

Of course, there is what I write, a mixture of Yaoi and M/M romance. I take the sort of characters and situations you'd find in a M/M romance and give it a bit more of that Yaoi romantic emotion. At least, that's what I try to do:) There are others like me who write normal books (not manga) and have anime-style, hand-drawn covers. Maybe if some of you other authors come across my ramblings you can pipe in:)

Anyhow, in my very short analysis, I think I've determined that yes, there is a difference between Yaoi and M/M Romance. But I believe the lines between the two are being fudged into gray and morphed the more popular these genre's get outside of Asia. And I also believe it's great for us women (and men) who love both genres.

What do you prefer and what do you want to see more of?


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